Why does everything have to be such a struggle with me?
Other people go to school, they apply to college, they get in some places and it's obvious where they should go. Why does it have to be so hard for me? I'm so sick of this crap. I want to know where to go. Is it because I'm overthinking this? Do I just enjoy making things difficult for myself?
Also. PROM. What the heck is up with the prom date situation. This is ridiculous. Everyone is getting together so that all eligible boys are out. I can name at least 10 couples who have started going out in the last month. There's like than a few weeks left of real school. These new couples' reasoning completely defies logic, and common sense, and while some may be like "Ohh that's so romantic" it's NOT because those relationships will fail once fall comes and everyone's gotta go their separate ways, no matter how they try to fight the long-distance thing. I suppose people have always liked each other and maybe now is the only time they've finally gotten the courage to do and say stuff about it. But honestly people! There are practically no viable dates left. Everyone is taken or not likely to ask me. Would going to prom stag be worth it???
I feel acutely that anything that goes wrong is a slight against me. I realize this. I want to correct this. But it's hard, and with every small catastrophe I'm just getting more and more downhearted and sad and then nobody wants to talk to someone like that, much less ask them to prom.
It's a vicious cycle.
Basically though, I just want to arrive at some conclusion and get closure regarding the whole college thing. I can overlook all this high school drama if only I had something concrete to look forward to. But right now, I just don't know what to do. WHAT DO I DO?
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Okayyyy, so I read this a LONGGG time ago, but I can't write here until now because I've been dying.
I pulled three all nighters! In a row!! But now I've finished all the essays...granted, I didn't do great...but it's over.
The best grade I'm going to get this semester is a B :(.....crap....
And...hm...yeah, I suck. Oh well. I heard/read somewhere you chose berkeley so congrats, awesome schoooool!
I shoulda gone there...dang it. Oh well. You'll have fun :). And...prom stuff dude, don't worry. Umm...going stag? I dunno, I wasn't going to go but people said it was a 'must go' experience, so yeah. It was fun though. Go with other friends stag? You'll have fun. Yep...okay. Your life should be a little less stressed now too, but then there's testing and stuff, so good luck with that. I have finals now, and then I'm done!! yay!!